Guilt

[Cin]

I feel guilty because

...I am living a lie, my friends don't know the real me. I feel like I'm fooling them. I wonder if they'd still be friends if they knew I was trans.
--Same goes with my family because they already have enough problems, and coming out now would only be making things worse for them.
...I wasted two years of my life wondering just what the heck was wrong with me.
...I wasn't always honest to my family.
...I wasn't always honest to myself.

[cindy16]

Cin, I understand and sympathize with the family part of it, but with friends you have a choice. If they would not be your friends if they knew you were trans, then they were probably not worth being friends with anyway.
And about wasting any time in our lives or not being honest with ourselves, I think it all comes down to what or how much we could have known or figured out on our own. If we couldn't have, then why blame ourselves for it?

[Cin]

Cin, I understand and sympathize with the family part of it, but with friends you have a choice. If they would not be your friends if they knew you were trans, then they were probably not worth being friends with anyway.
And about wasting any time in our lives or not being honest with ourselves, I think it all comes down to what or how much we could have known or figured out on our own. If we couldn't have, then why blame ourselves for it?

You're right, I can always make new friends, and even though I wasted a few years, I'm still young.

I don't feel guilty right now, but when dysphoria is high, I feel guilty.