Hello,
First of all excuse my English, I am from Argentina.
I am a 41 years old man, who never felt comfortable with his body. I do not feel like a man nor woman I feel just different. Same happens with my body, these days it looks more man than woman but it used to be very androgynous and some parts still are (like my voice). In the last few years I discovered the intersex condition, when I read about it, I realized it describes my life a lot. I asked help to a therapist and started asking doctors and searching for old pictures trying to see my past beyond my memory. A doctor said I am partial androgen insensitive, but said nothing explicit about intersex. I would like to know your opinion if I truly am or not.
I made this summary with things I have found:
* I was born with no testicles in the scrotum.
* At 4 years old, I received testosterone to develop my testicles and pull them into scrotum, only one descended, the other failed, the doctor discovered it was atrophied.
* I had surgery at 2 years old because of an inguinal hernia.
* I was circumcised because of phimosis at 9 years old.
* In the pictures, my penis size looked normal at birth, but very small later, as if it did not grow with me. Example: just before circumcision it was 1 inch (measured with my own finger, so not sure the exact size).
* I was diagnosed with varicocele.
* Until 12 I looked androgynous, when puberty started I looked a bit more girly due to the way I was gaining fat and how it distributed. I also developed gynecomastia.
* Suddenly at 15 my face factions changed to masculine, and gynecomastia retreated into what the doctor names fibrous lipomasty. This is when I suspect I received testosterone again.
* At 17 my beard grown up and I started to loose hair.
* Sometime between 15-17 years, my penis developed "inside the normal range".
* At gym I could not do same exercises as the other kids. My strength and endurance was lower and flexibility higher. Trainer just said that I did not trained hard enough.
* A new doctor diagnosed me with muscular atrophy.
* According to this new doctor, he says my current testosterone level is low but inside normal ranges and my estradiol is high but not enough to need any treatment (39ng when maximum is 37ng), that's when he explained me that I have partial androgen insensitivity, and that's why I do not develop muscle, very few body hair, some curves and uncommon fat distribution, specially in my chest.
About the checklist in this thread:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,187988.0.html?PHPSESSID=tgup8e029lm3047q10l9gap926Yes * long, slender arms and legs
Not now, but before 15 yes * feminine looking facial features
Yes * legs significantly longer than the height of your upper body
Yes * an armspan more than 3cm greater than your height
Yes * sparse or very fine body hair
Mostly * a female pubic hair pattern (like an upside down triangle and confined to the pubic area)
Yes * an inability to build upper body muscle
No * gynecomastica
Possible (big angle but I do not know how to measure it) * a female carrying angle
Yes * a female digit ratio
Thanks a lot for reading this, and I would feel very happy to know your opinion.