So I started to come out three weeks ago and after my first go( you can read about that in my earlier post ), I have steadily been taking it further. Small calculated steps. I saw my GP last week and she was unbelievably excited. Could not ask for a better Dr to be looking after my care. She even referred me to the GIC clinic which is something that I thought I would have to wait another year for. She phoned the CCG who commission care in the NHS and explained that I was a senior manager in the NHS trust that would deliver my care and got them to fund a private service so that I would not be visible to my employer yet. She called me yesterday to tell me what she had done and I almost burst into tears with happiness. I know that lots of people in the UK have gripes about experiences getting referrals to GIC clinics but with a GP like I have it seems to just be so easy. She said that the root of all my other health problems probably came from my trans issues and that there was no point going to other mental health services when I needed to deal with this first and be happy again. Wow! Think I might be developing a bit of a crush on her!
I have also come out to a friend in work who I trust and she was amazingly cool about it and appears to know lots of other trans girls very well. I still get the nerves before I break the news but she was so supportive. Even had a laugh about it. Best still she gave me a big hug when saying goodbye that was so lovely. It appears that being trans makes you very hug worthy and I am loving every bit of it. I still am scared of the future and the big challenges I am going to face but all this positive stuff at the start is just the tonic I need. Even the Bruce Jenner story was covered in the British press and my friends have been reading all about the trans issues that have now been discussed openly in main stream press like the Gardian and the Times. I feel like I am changing at the same time as the whole world. It's like the trans tide is coming in and lifting me up just at the point when in need it. I wish I could say I timed this but how nice that it has happened this way for me. I feel scared but truly blessed at the same time. Love and peace to you all.
