I have to go. I have to get away from everything, get away from it all. This life just ain't worth existing in these days without something or someone to chase. I ->-bleeped-<-ed up with Caleb and I have been paying for it ever since. And I can't take it anymore. So I am out of here forever. I've been on cloud Nine and had my face ground into the dirt. Such is life.
Caleb, I hope you have a wonderful life. Don't forget to take time to smell the roses. I will always love you Honeybear. You are the light in my life. In the Last photo you shared with me your eyes looked so sad. I am so sorry for the pain I have caused you.
For those starting out on their journey I have this to say.
You will be tested. You will be pushed emotional to the edge and there are some rough times ahead. You can endure all of this. You are strong enough. And you are NEVER ever alone. Hold on to hope. You are a gorgeous gorgeous person. If you keep your hopes and dreams alive no one can break you. And you need only rely on yourself and your own ingenuity to stay afloat in the rough times. When it gets too much to bare, you will find support and love here. The question that you will come up with often is "Do I pass?" "Am I pretty?" Or "Do I look Badass?"
You are all awesome. Don't try to pass as the guy or girl you know you are. BE that person with every fiber of your being. The ultimate test of knowing if people see you as male or female is to just interact with strangers in your daily life. These people have no reason to spare your feelings and will tell you exactly how they see you. You're all beautiful and badass. It takes a lot of guts to be you. It takes a lot to transition and even more to do it on the job and with grace and integrity. It's a wild ride going from one sex to another. It's even more wild for those of you who identify as both or neither.
To everyone else, thank you for some thought provoking, fascinating and great discussions. We have shared wonderful moments together and mourned the loss of many good people here who's life was taken far too soon
Be nice to each other. In the threads where someone posts their photo, someone post something in response. Remember that it takes an act of courage to throw yourself out there to be judged by your peers. And some of us need that reassurance every once in a while that they don't look like ->-bleeped-<-.
If you can, do something to help keep this site going. It really does help the community.
I love you all and always will.
Best Wishes,
Keaira (^_^)
