Relief

[Newgirl Dani]

    This is not because I have a question, it's cause I guess.  The relief due to low testosterone is one of 'the' most extarodinary things to ever come into my life.  Putting an end to those decades of aggression, anger, and that all out frenzy of lunatic behavior that cut a path of mayhem and destruction everywhere I went is welcome beyond measure.  These ways of being provided the perfect cover for escaping the focused attention of self introspection.  Underlying all this was the mind numbing fog of lifelong drug use, in proportions which barely allowed escape from deaths door.  A rampage that I never ever doubted would extend to my last day.
     If that were not enough, the rise of estrogen has given me life.  I now have calm.   Dani
     

[stephaniec]

I love estrogen

[Sabrina]

Me as well. Estrogen has made me much calmer.

[Newgirl Dani]

Read this and realized the force with which it was written.  Sometimes for a short time, whatever the reason my past crashes through everything else.  Went for my late night walk, very nice, moon out, partially cloudy, dark woods, all the things that brings my perspective back.  Nice to have a place to write aside from my journal.  Have a good night all.   Dani

[Cindy]

Hugs Dani.

One day I will get to the USA and meet my friends, maybe we can walk through the woods together.

As long as there are no bears, drop koalas I can deal with but bears?

[Joanne Feliz]

    This is not because I have a question, it's cause I guess.  The relief due to low testosterone is one of 'the' most extarodinary things to ever come into my life.  Putting an end to those decades of aggression, anger, and that all out frenzy of lunatic behavior that cut a path of mayhem and destruction everywhere I went is welcome beyond measure.  These ways of being provided the perfect cover for escaping the focused attention of self introspection.  Underlying all this was the mind numbing fog of lifelong drug use, in proportions which barely allowed escape from deaths door.  A rampage that I never ever doubted would extend to my last day.
     If that were not enough, the rise of estrogen has given me life.  I now have calm.   Dani
   

god that sounds familiars,  i have done some crazy things too and have been so angry at the world and myself I almost forgot who I am.

[katrinaw]

Fully agree Dani, I am much less aggressive or argumentative than before, with a couple of exceptions re argumentative... Love low T and high E 

L Katy

[Newgirl Dani]

Thanks all, sometimes thanks just seems kinda inadequate but yeah, thanks.

Cindy, you are really soooo sweet, you would be very welcome.  Bears?.... well I have bears, cougars and everything in between, but wildlife have an awareness of us to a much greater degree than most know.  I have been watching the generations of animals here for over three decades, I even had a bobcat make her way though a hole in the deteriorated part of a far back room to have a litter of kittens.  For whatever reason she had to abandon them so I raised them for the first week or two, then turned them over to an agency that looks after them, then releases them back to the wild.  She comes up to me once in awhile in summer.  So I can guarantee your safety Cindy  .  Now I wouldnt mind seeing a koala or two dropping from out of my trees, although I think that would kinda make me go hmmmm.

Yeah I went sort of off the tracks but well thats me....off the tracks.     Dani

JUST WATCHED VID CLIP FOR "DROP BEARS: ATTACK OF THE KILLER KOALA'S"  WOW!  AUSTRALIA IS A DANGEROUS PLACE        Thanks Robyn, I would have never known

[Robyn37]

Drop Koalas!  LOL! I miss Australia...

[noleen111]

Me as well. Estrogen has made me much calmer.

Me as well.. I love the estrogen following in me... I am calmer ... but I can be bitch if I want too... but still estrogen is cool