Hello everybody.

Well, I will start with the basics - my name is Benita, I am from Lithuania, and, to be honest, I don't know what I am...
For several years, I though everything was clear. I had a very strong male identity (I'm AFAB). All the doctors were about to let me transition, but somewhere between my mental health problems and my suicide attempt, that changed. I understood that living as male was just as fake for me. So, I don't know. Now I define myself as androgynous... But I'm still not sure where I stand...
I came here because I thought this would be a friendlier place for me than just a public forum, since usually people think that you're either this or that, and my journey is more like a zig-zag than a typical X-to-Y, if you know what I mean... So yeah, hi!