Just trying to figure things out and not being alone.

[awkward-shark]

Long title, I guess...
Anyway... I'm Jul but I also respond to the name of Sharky, wich is a nickname I have in a different forum.
I'm here because I've been questioning my identity for months now. I stoped going to therapy because when I told my therapist how I felt she didn't really show a lot of interest (?) and well... I've been feeling alone since then, I cannot talk about this with most people (one friend is being very hepfull tho).

I identify as genderqueer, I have boobs, but I'd love to get surgery someday. I want a more "masculine" body, but I don't know if I want to have a beard or a deeper voice. I love that feeling when people call me "boy" or when strangers use masculine pronouns... I could go on and on about all those stuff that made me realice I wasn't cis, but that'd be long and I don't want to remember. 

A little more about me... I'm 20 years old, I'm mexican, I study language and literature and consider myself a linguistics (even if I haven't graduated).

I'm a feminist and I want to read a lot more about feminist theory, queer theory and gender studies.
I just ADORE sharks and whales and fish and just any sea animal. Hence my nickname.

Well, I guess that's it. May the journey begin.

[adrian]

Welcome, Sharky! Good to have you here .

Ha, I have an obsession with all things Moby-Dick related -- there's a lot of whale stuff in my home [emoji16] .

Could you find another therapist? I think it would be helpful to have someone guide you through this process of figuring things out.

[V M]

Hi Sharky 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Here's some quick links to help you along

Please be sure to review

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar)
  
• Reputation rules
  
• Photo, avatars, and signature images policy
  

Hugs

V M

[Ms Grace]

Hi Sharky! Welcome to Susan's!

[awkward-shark]

Thanks for replying, y'all.  And nice to meet you!

Could you find another therapist? I think it would be helpful to have someone guide you through this process of figuring things out.

I do want to find another one, but I don't know if it should be a gender therapist (if that's even a thing) or a regular therapist... basically I am afraid a new therapist won't understad me either and will say stuff like "well, if you don't want to have a penis and if you don't want to have a massive beard, you're not really trans" 

That's part of the reason I decided to join Susan's. It looks like a big and nice community where I can find the support I may not be finding in the near future. n_n

[adrian]

Yup, gender therapists are a thing But it's perfectly possible to find a therapist who is good for you who isn't a "gender specialist". I think when you look to set up an appointment with one you should ask if they're LGBQT* friendly or something along those lines -- because you will need someone who takes you seriously. They are not the ones who can figure stuff out for you, but they can guide you along the way and help you tackle any problems that arise.