Hiya Petti,
You are getting some sage, sound advice and guidance here. Trust what these women are telling you and take heart.
I don't have much to add beyond what the others have shared as regards their own journey. But as a trans woman of color myself, I'd like to reassure you that, while your fears are not entirely unwarranted, I would caution you not to give over so much of your precious energy to fear. The fear will paralyze you if you let it. I can assure that in the 195 months since I went full time, I have never felt myself to be at risk of physical or verbal violence. I believe that this is the case because I don't expect violence; I don't worry about violence; I don't think about being a victim; and I'm smart about not putting myself in places and/or situations where violence upon my person is likely to occur. I don't feel restricted or discriminated against; I simply behave the way any smart woman who cares behaves with regards to her personal safety.
Look for the best in people and life itself, and you're likely to find it. At least, that has been my experience.
Hugs!
Miharu
PS. Yup, that's me in the picture, getting a tattoo on March 7, 2014. You wouldn't believe what a bearded, macho, hunk I was 25 years ago. Have a little faith that what's good out weighs what's mean in the world, and trust that your heart will lead you to fulfillment if you'll let it.
