FYI: I'm IS.
I actually do understand. My first stepfather was apparently abusive. I can't remember almost anything from that time in my life.
It makes me wonder though. Like did he know I was different than the other boys? Did he hit me, or just yell. My mom's memory of that time is mostly missing as well, so I'll never know.
I've always been very emplathic, and if I feel anything bad, I move away. I've always been afraid, and always kind of had a hatred towards men, and I never wanted to be one ever (Ironically, in a way I never did become one.). Thankful my hatred has died down a lot over the years, but it took a really long time.
I still wonder if my mom knew I was different back then too, because that was when she decided to raise my brother and I gender neatrul. Unfortunately I'll never know, because my Mon took to drinking.
Interesting enough, I have been treated more poorly by males than females. In fact I've always have gotten along much better with females. But I've had a few females treat me rudely too.
