So I am planning on moving and joining the military. I was always interested but the focus on my transition has always showed me another path. Few months prior I was trying to enlist, and my transition and the contemplation of time being lost kept bothering me.
I want to join because it seems actually fun, I am intelligent and know I can contribute alot. I just do not want to lose myself, but I did take my asvab and placed well enough to get any Army job.
I enjoy intelligence and know I can grow emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally. Exciting and I can save a huge sum of money, be well adapted to life and get a job in the CIA. Risky because this world has corruption not that everyone is, but maybe I can be a beacon of light to work that out. Demonstrating efficient techniques and planning orchestrated to handle all issues the most appropriate. Meh, I am such a hype ball. I am. But I am so serious.
Years of being closed off from myself, but yet I never accepted being a gay guy, knowing I am not. So maybe this time since I will have to detransition will open ways to finding some piece of me.
Lame. Really. Lame. So much for my post of winging it homeless. Homeless till I leave. Bummer. But Yay?
Much Love
