I am happy to be back on the streets, freedom and opportunities just at grasp. Hopefully I can get a security blanket, that makes s night full of rest.
To me it does not take much to be ready for the days, I have a place where I can shower and get clothing, that fits my mood, aka my gender fluidity. I am so ready, ready for the world, for whatever comes my way.
Only thing is days get so boring, but this time gives me the opportunity to experience and step way more out of my comfort zone. Sure being trans, on the streets will be depressing but it is all worth. Seems naive, ignorant but to live life is better than afraid to live at all.
I am a person I will take blame and always have, but today was so awkward that I reminded me of how I got into his situation anyways. Discrimination based off of my appearance and I did not dress feminine at all, maybe my flip flops which is what started the whole controversy. It was so surreal and threw me off, that I just snapped and the thought f this came to mind.
I literally sit in this house, like a bird locked in a cage, staring out wanting to do so much more. The world keeps on spinning with or without me, I am just finally, finally trying to live. Actually transition to pass, though I dislike the whole "fish" and pass.. I get it, and no one should be condemned for that.
I hold myself back so much in life, I am ready to just let it all out. Appropriately of course. As selfish as this is, I am doing this all for the world. Yes, even my transition, get to understand self, become my best to provide my best!
Times may be getting tougher, hopefully I can find a job in the big city. Hmm..
Besos y Abrazos!
