Hola

[Klumzie]

Hey guys and gals. I'm a biological girl who is terribly confused about what's going on inside her head. It's like I don't want to be this girly girl everyone wants me to be or to be in the future. Whenever I try to get something or see something I like that just so happens to be in the guy section my mom always antagonizes me and says things like 'What, you want to be a boy?' or 'You're a girl, get used to it.' I usually just get pissed off and forget the whole thing to avoid an embarrassing argument. But when I get home and lock myself in my room, I get to thinking, do I really want to be a boy? When I look inside myself it's like I don't want to be feminine at all, I don't like being cute, wearing girlish clothes and purses and things, and I never have since I was a kid. But when I look on the opposite side of the spectrum I do feel more comfortable with a T-shirt and jeans and my newly cut short hair, but I don't feel the need or urge to be guy-ish or perceived as a guy. I feel like I'm right in the middle somewhere, almost gender-less. It's weird being neither or cause I can't really define myself, but a small part of me kinda wants to be either or and I think that's my problem. It's all very confusing and I don't know what I can do about it with my fam being all wishy-washy on the subject. I'm trapped inside my head trying to figure all this mess out and I think it's driving me crazier than I already am.

Anyway that's my 1/5 of my life story and I don't want to kill you guys with my venting. So hello again, I'm Klumzie.

[Nero]

Good evening Klumzie! Welcome and pleased to meet you! <shakes hand>

Please take the time to visit these links:

Site Terms of Service and Rules to Live By:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html

And while I encourage you to acquaint yourself with all of the forums here, our Androgyne forum may be of particular interest to you. We have many female and male born androgynes who share similar feelings to you according to your post. They are a great and lively bunch of people, and I feel right at home among them.

Androgyne forum:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,57.0.html

Again welcome and I look forward to hearing more of your story.
Nero

[Mia and Marq]

Hi Klumzie,

I too welcome you to the forums. I would also suggest you check out the Androgyne section. Just in case you've not heard that term before allow me to offer the briefest of definitions. Where as I'm sure you're familiar with the binary genders, male and female, Androgynes are all the people that are somewhere inbetween being either a mixture of male and female, neither, or sometimes both. Where as no one can really ever tell you what you are, we can suggest further reading in different sections. So have at it and we'll see you around. I look foward to reading more of your posts.

Marq and Mia

[tinkerbell]

Hello Klumzie and welcome to Susan's!

Thanks for your introduction. Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay

tink

[RebeccaFog]

Hi Klumzie,

   Take a look around the site here.  There are many different types of people and you will find someone very close to how you feel.  I'm sure you'll find yourself as time passes.  I like your idea of how you'd like to dress.  I'm surprised your mother says anything.  It doesn't sound like you're trying to be too radical.

   I'll see you around,


Rebis

[Caroline]

Hi Klumzie.  Figuring yourself out when you don't fit neatly into either gender box is difficult, but very rewarding when you make progress.  If you feel kind of gender-less you might want to look about the web for information on being neut.  Hope to see you around in the androgyne forums

[no_id]

Yo'z Klumzie, welcome to the l33t Susan's club. Sit back, have some icecream and fasten your seatbelt before the rollercoaster starts its engines.... It's going to be quite a rocky, but interesting ride... And, if you have some questions after a helix or two then don't be afraid to ask them...

... We don't bite.
Often.