The more i think about coming out, the more being gay and even just liking men feels wrong to me again, argh why does it have to be soo confusing?
My thought process tonight?
Was i only using being gay as an excuse to feel more feminine? not so much attracted to men? but attracted to the idea of being treated like a princess by one? also like maybe i was using this as an excuse to hide from being Trans-gendered? its always felt abit wrong to think about having a boyfriend again, also my dysphoria and how much i didnt want to assume that masculine role and how i expected that woman would just expect that from me, also i thought it would be hard for Trans Woman to date Woman or if i started dating Woman and i came out as Trans they would dump me, i think somewhere along the way i thought guys would be more accepting of Trans Woman but its worse if anything there such pigs when it comes to Transgender Woman all they see is ->-bleeped-<-'s and i dont like that