So, um, hii!
I know I haven't posting for awhile. Maybe just letting know some progress. My mom, brother and I are on family therapy due to recent events. She keeps telling in fam therapy she won't support me but now she has kind op opened herself. She even let me go to the LGBT youth reunion, even though I didn't quite get there on time, lol, but at least she didn't say: "Noo you can't go! They are bad people and they'll influence you into that lifestyle" like I imagined she would. She also didn't pressure me too much when I refused cutting my hair, she did say my hair looks horrible, but whateva. I don't even know why I am making this topic. Oh yeah, I do!! I am growing my hair out and plucking my upper lip and chin, I don't have much hair, but hate it, and considering getting laser. That said, I wonder how passable I am going to be. I want to be, because I want to blend in. I know there are peeps who don't find passing important and I probably look very superficial to some, but really where I live, it's crucial for me to pass. I want to live a life as normal as it can, meaning good.
Progress... Hmmm, I talked to a gender therapist and I'm probably going to meet with her at some point and hopefully she'll recommend medical care and I will be evaluated for the hormones process. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm actually this close. Not that I have my mom's support, though. It's hard to believe but my mom still buys my clothes, which I hate and think it's a bad habit. I want to make my wardrobe more andro, what should I do? I have been wearing tighter jeans and I need to get my ears pierced, then contact lens, I have done my eyebrows myself but I think they may be too arched. I need to buy makeup. God there's so many ways I need to develop and create my own potential, but it's hard cause I basically 0 support network, but I'm hoping it will improve as I join LGBT groups. Hopefully, I will land a man too, lol jk. I just want friends, study, be a nurse, volunteer myself and run away from my mom. She is way too controlling.
http://imgur.com/MNs2w7E I'm basically this way right now, except my hair is longer but yeah I stayed the same. I can even do a very small ponytail!!!!! OMG
http://vocaroo.com/i/s00Pwe2IYeup This is my voice and it's not trained. So it's probably my best asset. Though, sometimes I think it's way too high. But I'm only 18 so I don't know. Is my voice age appropriate?
WOWOW, lol, it probably looks like I'm hyper excited, maybe I am. I am just finally seeing my dreams slowly come true but I still wanna be realistic and not be caught in some delusion. Truth is I have a big ass nose and I need makeup to contour it but I'm too much of a wimp to go there by my own, so any of you lovely ladies want to help me?? Please?? Lol jk, but yeah I could use some help. I'm gonna ask my friend B to go with me. Oh and this guy in math class who I totally don't know keeps staring and smiling at me, sometimes it creeps me out. But he offered to work with me immediately after the teacher said she didn't have enough papers, so I had none and he said "oh! we can work together". He's a good student and I asked him some questions. But I don't know how I feel about it. We'll see.
Does anyone have clothing advice for andro? I don't have any boobage yet.
