Hello everyone.
My name.... Well we'll skip that part for now. I'm 26 years old and I am married with a baby almost here. Since I was 13 I have enjoyed cross dressing and making myself look beautiful. I Would do whatever I could to look as naturally feminine as possible. That was a long time ago. Now I have a small family that I am responsible for. The problem is that this desire to possess feminine beauty hasn't gone away. Over the years I have stuffed it for personal and religious reasons hoping it would eventually die or phase out. It hasnt. I'm here because I want people to talk to. I love my wife more than anything and I love my baby who is joining us soon. My wife and I have talked about this "issue" before and she is against me expressing myself in that way. To her, it wouldn't be me anymore. To her, if I were to transition or maybe even just cross dress a little, it would be a nightmare come true. She is under the impression that this is an urge I am trying to fight and one day win over. That fact that I'm here says otherwise.
I therefore have come to an impasse. We at one point discussed that if I were to transition and attempt to let myself be physically and outwardly feminine, then we cannot stay together. I would have a year to reconsider and then after that it's a divorce.
I am here because I want to talk to people who have experienced the same or similar experience that I have. I just want to know how to deal with this, because I've tried hundreds of things and prayed hundreds of prayers... But nothing stuck...
That's about all I have for now. I look forward to further conversing with you wonderful people.
Me
