As my 2 years on HRT approaches i have looked backed to my notes and seen the changes of my approach to transitioning. Before this journey commenced, high on T, I had plans to leave my city and start a new life when I transitioned, I would not put my friends in a position that would be awkward, and avoid the press for the sake of my family. Which is really irrational as my brother founded the LGBT movement in my Asian metropolis, at a time when being gay carried a life sentence. I have read my notes as time progressed and this position has remained intact until recently, and I guess not all decisions are written in stone. Recently I have had the privilige to engage with a few TS personalities who are activists and I now am considering a different approach. I still plan to do my transition in Bangkok but I feel that I need to influence my community and that I should openly come out in my city after I have transitioned. I think have the influence and maybe only in my own mind - the power to succeed in making a difference, perhaps I too can contribute to the LGBT community in my own city. It seems that I don't seem to care so much about others peoples feelings and feel I have the right be myself and not care about the barbed comments that will certainly happen behind my back. Maybe I will change again in my views and I understand that the mental changes of being an E driven mind have not fully developed, but I sense that this is the right road and one that will give more meaning to my life.
