So, recently I finally told someone that I'm transgender, although I didn't plan to. One of my friends, who I live with in the moment, just said that she had noticed that I was unhappy being female and even said that I was more suited for a guy. Then she asked me if I have ever considered transitioning and I decided to tell her the truth. She wasn't surprized at all and said that she had expected it and that she will support me if this is what will make me happy. But she also said that she doesn't see it as something normal and believes that it's a choice and that she also can't see me as a real man before I have GRS, which botheres me. I asked her to call me by male pronouns and use my preffered name, but she doesn't even try to do this, although she said she will try. Also, because in our language we put gendered endings on the words, like in Spanish, I use the male ones and she uses female ones and it feels very awkward. I tried to talk with her about it, but nothing changed. I want to be myself when I'm with her, because she's the only person in real life who knows about it, but I began to feel ashamed of using male pronouns and words, because I feel like she doesn't take me seriously. Sometimes, I feel it will be better to tell her to forget about everything I told her, but I know that there's no turning back now. I don't want to take this step back, anyway. I don't know what to do about it. Being around her makes me feel very uncomfortable and we live together.
