Pictures-would I have any chance?

[Auroramarianna]

D'awwww. I think you look super cute, face-wise. You look like you are 23, maybe 24, no? Your face is so pretty and femmey. Your eyes are gorgeous. Though, you could do your eyebrows. That will help immensly. You already look super femmey so if you do your eyebrows, you'll notice an outstanding difference. Removing the beard shadow will also help. I agree that you're being way too harsh on yourself, to me you look very feminine and have lots of potential. However, your body is quite bulky and muscular, which might not be a problem, but it will take more time for your body to feminize. You'll need to be especially careful with what you wear so you don't emphasize this. But really you're so pretty and even if you decide not to transition, you are still quite cute and give such an handsome man, lol. jeez sorry,

[orangejuice]

D'awwww. I think you look super cute, face-wise. You look like you are 23, maybe 24, no? Your face is so pretty and femmey. Your eyes are gorgeous. Though, you could do your eyebrows. That will help immensly. You already look super femmey so if you do your eyebrows, you'll notice an outstanding difference. Removing the beard shadow will also help. I agree that you're being way too harsh on yourself, to me you look very feminine and have lots of potential. However, your body is quite bulky and muscular, which might not be a problem, but it will take more time for your body to feminize. You'll need to be especially careful with what you wear so you don't emphasize this. But really you're so pretty and even if you decide not to transition, you are still quite cute and give such an handsome man, lol. jeez sorry,

Well shucks thanks. I'm going to be 26 this week actually. Kinda terrified that I'm at an age where I've just missed the boat in terms of getting really convincing results from HRT. Because that pic honestly is really flattering. It's basically how I looked all the time 4 or 5 years ago, actually I had even softer features and waaay more hair, but now it's only in certain lights, angles, if my hair is sitting right etc. Most of the time I'm revolted by what I see when I catch a glimpse in the mirror or in pictures these days.
But ye it's my body that is the main issue and I agree I'll (I'd?) be pretty limited with what I can wear. I'm  kinda cool with that though. If it wasn't for the breasts thing I'd be sailing. Take HRT, hopefully feel better, know that I'm not going to masculinise any more at least, which I KNOW would make me feel better,  and just dress in nice jeans and cool androgynous t-shirts with the right fit. And then if it turns out that HRT does work miracles then I could take it from there. That is pretty much my plan I think. Probably naive but hey it's better than doing nothing given how much this is ruining my life at the moment.

And you know even though I know that pic is flattering I still didn't look at it and think I looked in any way feminine which a lot of people have said here so that's cool maybe I'm doing that with my appearance as a whole.

[Seras]

Thinking you look rubbish is pretty much par for the course when it comes to being trans. Until you realise you don't. It takes some time to get over years of hating your appearance. Which is often not half as bad as the self image.

[chefskenzie]

you will be beautiful.  Trust me hon.  HRT will soften up everything, and you won't recognize the person looking back at you in the mirror.