Hi, I'm Randell (Rannie) And I don't know how to title things.
Uh... I'm Ftm and pretty much pre.... everything. I figured out I was male about six years ago in my freshman year of highschool when I started dating my first girlfriend. I didn't have any resources, and things were really scary so for years I tried my hardest to deny it. My wardrobe consisted of nothing but pink floral print dresses and up until about a week ago I had long blonde hair.
I think the reason I tried so hard was due to my stepfather... he was... well he was awful. But that's not the point. I don't live with him anymore and I never have to see him again, so that's in the past.
The point is that two days ago I came out as trans. The response among my friends was really supportive. though my mom's a bit concerned. She has trouble understanding how I could identify as a boy after spending years covered in flowers and lace. I think things will be okay though.
Besides that, what else can I say about myself?
I went to floral school for a year and even won a couple competitions for it. I genuinely love flowers and if the industry wasn't so gross right now I'd consider a career in it. I know flowers aren't the most manly thing to like, but I don't think interest really have much to do with gender.
I also love video games and animation and am going to school to become an animator. I also really like Ouji Kei fashion. Ouji Kei means prince style, and it's based off of boy's Victorian fashion but with a modern and more mature twist. I also like to play Magic: The Gathering and am in love with Dinosaurs.
Um... I guess my biggest issue right now is how feminine I am. I'm only five one, my feet are tiny and I've the girliest face on the planet.
I also have huge hips and slim shoulders... I'm pretty much the opposite of what I want to be. I know exercise and dressing right can help, but I don't even know how men's clothing works yet.
But I'm not discouraged! Things might not be great right now, but they're better than how they were before.
The bad times are just times that are bad.
