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[Xxula]

Hello,
I have been visiting this site for answers for a while, but decided to join just a few days ago. I have actually been struggling my entire life with "urges" and these have increased in the last 10 years. I am not yet out but I think I want to go in that direction. I am seeing a therapist about the possibility of transitioning to female. I frightens me but I need to find out so that those who are close to me do not feel it is their fault. I dress female under my clothes and no one at work knows. My spouse knows a little about my past, but the extent of my leanings have really increased. I am seeing the therapist to find out if any of this is not real and to tell those I am close to in the most diplomatic way possible. After that, I need to take further steps. Perhaps I would take hormones and then further permanent hair removal and the rest of the steps which I can only imagine. I suppose what this is all about is to be able to express what I feel and know on the inside to the world. In any case I look forward to exploring more of this site and thanks in advance for any of your input.

Love and Blessings

[Jill F]

Hi Xxula,

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~Jill

[Devlyn]

Hi Xxula, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm from Boston. Job #1 is going to be keeping your spouse in the loop with open, honest communication. Get busy posting and I'll see you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

[V M]

Hi Xxula 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M