so yesterday i think i actually accidentally 'came out' to my brother. :/ as i am just really starting to understand and even accept myself who i am, i really wasnt ready to tel anyone yet, however my older brother came home and was in my room where i had left a book out. unfortunately the said book happened to be The Transgender Guidebook: Keys to a Successful Transition ....
so my brother picked it up and i sorta tried to pass it off as a friend gave it me, but i didn't really explain much about it,, and i could tell what he was thinking :/
its been making me feel really anxious, worried and pretty stressed, and i know he didn't disown me immediately and i just dont really know what to do, i feel we are just gonna avoid the topic until i ever 'come out' properly

im still presenting as male, and i am only really starting the journey, just hate not feeling in control of everything
sigh
thanks for reading if you did, just sorta needed to sell someone or rather let it out