Help with coping with genitalia

[Sarah V Warsaw]

Im sorry if this is inappropriate in anyway but i am having a hard time with my boyfriend and me having sex.

Its mostly me not wanting to get a male service done and when i want a female service done which i physically cant. I cant afford the srs surgery yet so i am trying to find a way to cope with this so things can be enjoyable for me and my boyfriend. I had a coping mechanism before and it stopped working.

To all the beautiful and handsome people of this place,
Sarah

[mfox]

Getting any kind of attention to my male parts is usually a turn off for me when making love (which must sound strange for anyone who hasn't felt dysphoria before). 

Coping wise I discovered by accident that it's worlds better when he gives attention instead to my mons pubis, like deep massaging and caressing, especially since the effects of HRT.  You can hide the extra parts behind your legs if you start to feel dysphoric and it's really nice. 

But whatever the strategy of course it's soo important that your partner knows that you don't need or want certain attention and why.