I think I performed a miracle with my grandmother.

[Skylar105]

So as stated awhile back my family is against people like me and it caused me to be depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts. Today I got fed up with it all I was to the point of wanting to die and even knowing my families position. I called my grandmother and told her I need to talk with her alone which I with into a deep explanation of this problem. It actually went well I changed her whole view and I'm going to the doctors wednesday for anti depressants. I'm not alone now finally even though she still calls me he, him etc. But it's on her sub conscious level because she said she didn't call me these things. (it was in my letter). I must be really good at explaining things and support is the most important thing. I was set off by an atheist group saying that this was all about the fashion which the post was deleted like 3 or 4 ganged up on me. I immediately thought there is no support. I snapped which is why I went to try again honestly I thought what's the worst that can happen me be kicked out? But all is well for now my grandfather is different and it will wait until I get everything else I need in order. My dads side will disown me but at this point I couldn't care as long as I have one person I can survive.

[cindianna_jones]

There will always be someone who will accept you. You are fortunate you have someone in your family. A grandmother too! Treasure her. She may be your best supporter. Don't worry about the pronouns. Visit her as soon as  possible. She may be very understanding. I am very happy for you!

Chin up!
Cindi

[Skylar105]

She hated me for this until I got leverage on her to change her mind. She's basically my only supporter, and I live with her. I also wouldn't say always because some people are unable to get that.

[cindianna_jones]

Still, it is a foot in the door. You might be surprised how well she comes along. She may influence other family members as well. My father was dead set against this at first. He told me he'd beat me senseless if he ever saw me in a skirt. He eventually became my strongest supporter and had a strong influence on the rest of the family. FWIW, he never did quite get the pronouns right. He tried really hard but didn't quite make it. He died four years ago and I miss him terribly. Cherish your grandmother while you can.

Cindi

[Skylar105]

Thanks I'll enjoy my time with her, and it definitely is a foot in the door. The amount of time it took was long but I am glad I made it this far.

[Rachel]

That is wonderful news. It starts with one person and it grows. Congratulations.

[LoriLorenz]

Two things awesome here:

First: Definitely awesome that your grandmother is an ally! Be patient with her and she will come around. The pronouns may take time, since folks tend to get set in their ways. (I knew a wonderful Nun who STILL used them derogatory term "darkies" right into the 2000s, she loved her Indian neighbours, it was just a term she knew!)

Second: Anti-Depressants. Well done. Taking care of your meltal health will help keep you afloat and make the dark days a little lighter. I have been taking them myself for pain related issues, and they are a great help to me.

Keep your head up and be proud of yourself. Enough small steps and you'll be amazed at how far your journey takes you!

[Skylar105]

I hope the anti depressants help a lot because when I crash it's usually hard. But my pain is a lot easier currently with how I was able to change my grandmothers view. She didn't object to anything at all even if I was attracted to the same gender. Which she actually accepts transgender people more than homosexual people oddly. She said it's a lot to process which ironically I kind of told her own reaction before she had it. I knew she could only react in 1-3 ways and only the 1 was good the other two were bad.  I did have a bad experience with two idiots in Facebook that basically called this a "fashion statement" >_> it was like 3 people that basically ganged up too. Which sucks because they have no understanding and claim they do.

[Cindy]

Congrats! That is positive, well done!

Antidepressants are a good idea, once the mind fog lifts you can start living again.

Hugs

[Skylar105]

Anti depressants would be really good in my case because of how far my depression goes. With the progress I made currently I'm taking a break from worrying lol. It's kind of like a breather you know? :3