Thanks for the reply. though It's kind of not exactly what I was saying. I mean yes I need to see a counselor and hate living in the shadows and being secretive, but those are eventual goals. I'll reach those points later on when I more ready for all of this and can afford it.
What I'm talking about more along the lines of practicing putting on make-up, training my voice, and seeing how I would work as a woman. When I'm alone, I usually go full out with my make-up (As best I can do anyways) and dress up. Than I'll wear it like this around the house and try to act more femininely. It's hard to do that when people are home, you know. I guess I want to get somewhat decent at this in secret, so when I come out to people, they can see that I've put in the effort and can pull this off. Part of depression stems from constantly living in a negative world, where I'm always judged on my capabilities and looks. Personal problem I suppose. I guess this is what I trying to get at when I posted this.
