Each of our stories is very different. Denial as a young person took me down a very dark path and got me into legal trouble, and the debt that comes with it, that ive been dealing with for almost a decade (dont drive in new york if youve even been in the same room as alcohol. Seriously. Youd get less hassle for armed robbery). So between paying rent, trying to get my vehicle on the road, paying for one night 6 years ago, and keeping my job while i can, im happy to go slow. I lived the fast, self destructive life. Itd make a great book if i could rember half of it. Truth be told, ive just gotten back almost everything ive lost. Im willing to go slow. As for the dysphoria. Its pretty much dissappeared along with my marbles and sex drive.