I knew my mom was a in denial after I told her I was trans. She went through the basic questions. Was it because I had you wear your brother's hand me downs? Do you think seeing a therapist made this worse? Was it something I did? etc. She got pretty inventive though, asking if my anti-depressants did this. She also wants me to get my hormones checked, which I told her in a month I'm getting them checked anyways. She was like is this for.....transition?? She then went on to say how uncomfortable she feels talking about it and how she wants me to delay because she wants me to be sure.
I'm not delaying any longer though, I feel bad that I can't do what she wants but if I wait for to come to terms with it then years could go by. My brother is also trying to go philosophical junkie on me and is asking for "evidence" beyond my feelings for why I think I'm transgender. I was like
?? I have an official diagnosis but there is no test I can take and show you.
I sent my mom some videos to watch and hopefully those will help. I know my family is doing their best and they are accepting this much better than I thought, but I can't help laughing at some of the stuff they are trying. I'm not mad or frustrated, just a little exhausted.
I am afraid though that if I start T while my parents are so against it that it could damage our relationship. I'm not changing my mind though. I have my T letter and an appointment for next month, I want to please them but I also want to do what is right for me.
Ok that's my little mind barf I guess.
