I need your prayers.

[Consending]

I made a thread some time ago: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,174608.0.html

Last month my son committed suicide. The entire family is devastated. He left a note saying he killed himself due to his anger. He started feeling rage to the point that he felt like mortally hurting people around him. He further states that he didnt want to be a bother to us so he ended his life. There are more reasons but for right now I dont have the energy to type them out.

I don't know what to do. Is there any advice for me to move on?

[Cindy]

My deepest a most heartfelt sympathy and sorrow.

Another of our community couldn't face this life.

The most important point to focus on is that this is NOT YOUR FAULT.

You tried as I saw, to get help, your sons choice was his.

my love to you and your family

Cindy

[mrs izzy]

First my condolences in your loss. It is also a huge loss to our community when we loose one of our own. We also feel the pain. I feel I failed being i have passed all the darkness and moved forward. I feel more at a loss in i can not show others that life is happy.

You need to find a good counselor who understands that your daughter who was dealing with GD issues.

She did noting wrong, She was living a life he was given at birth. Just society has it wrong.

You need to bring a understanding in this fact in she had to feel her back was against the wall and no way out.

Sigh! Please know I am so sorry. I wish she would have spent some time here and found a mentor to help her past all that darkness.

Hugs and seek a counselor that will not bring shame to her name being she never had a choice on who she was.

[Lady Smith]

A month is way too soon to be even be thinking about moving past your son's suicide.  You are grieving and it will take time for you to heal.  Our society is not always very sympathetic towards grieving which means that other folk can be intolerant and expect us to simply 'snap out' of it and put a loved one's death behind us far too soon.

I feel deeply sorry that your son died in such tragic circumstances and I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

[Ms Grace]

My sincerest condolences - and I wish your family all the best in overcoming this tragedy. As for steps to recovery, have you considered grief counselling or support groups?

[Athena]

I am so sorry that this happened, it may be little comfort and hard to believe but you did your best to stop that. In this dark time remember this is not your fault, there was nothing more that could have stopped someone so determined. I hope that some day soon you will be able to move past the grief you now feel.

[suzifrommd]

Hugs and good thoughts your way. Losing a child is awful, however it happens.

I don't know what to do. Is there any advice for me to move on?

May I suggest a prayer of your own? Can you pray to be able to accept your son's choice and be at peace with your feelings of pain and loss?

I know it's not much, but it's all I've got.

[gennee]

You have my deepest sympathies. I will keep you and your family in prayer.

[FriendsCallMeChris]

So sorry for your pain. Prayers. 

[Wynternight]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. **hugs** You have a whole group of people here who will support you. A lot of us have been, or are, in the same place.

[Julia-Madrid]

I am so very, very sad and sorry for your loss.  This is horrible news, and my heart goes out to you and your family.

When you originally posted your family's situation I was hugely heartened to see a parent so willing to help a child deal with gender issues.  I still think that what you tried to do was motivated by a deep care and love that is sadly absent in many parents.

Your son was a fragile being, and he imposed a terrible pressure on himself.  I wish the outcome could have been different.

As you seek to move forward there are not many answers, just ways to cope with the loss.  Although I am not religious, my nominal religion, Judaism, offers a highly pragmatic structure for coping, mourning and evolving, at a time where so much existing structure has disappeared.  Perhaps it may help, along with some grief counselling.

Our thoughts are with you.

Julia

[BreezyB]

My deepest and most sincere condolences for your loss. I know this will be a very difficult time for you. You no doubt have many questions, you may only find answers to some of these. Losing anyone is hard, but losing a child is unimaginable. A few years back I lost both my parents, I searched for something to heal the pain, but nothing did. What I did learn though we're ways to live comfortably with the loss of my parents. And time does certainly help the healing process. I wish you peace during this difficult time.

With love, Bree xxx

[fifi000]

Prayers sent