I read a topic here that made me think. The topic was along the lines of what happens to transitioners and why they disappear from here. In my own life I can say it is because we find ourselves and do not need the daily support we once did. We move on with our new lives and find at times there is not enough daylight to do all we want to.
My own life has become something I could only one time dream about. It is wonderful even with the ups and downs. Luckily the downs now seem to be centered away from being transgender and more into what one might call the average life. I have been full time for a year and a half now and it is about routine now and not just trans centered. I belong to two special support groups where I am more of the mentor than the scared girl exploring life afraid of every move. I do things now I did not even consider in the past. I have wonderful friends and have accomplished many first's with them. First art gallery viewing, first theatre performance, first Tupperware party and many more. I have gotten into political lobbying activities and even plan on running for State House soon. Life to me now is about being me and enjoying every single second of it. There are times I cannot even remember how I felt before transition. The emotions, actions, feeling of being trapped, etc. It is a wonderful feeling I wish everyone could feel, being comfortable in your own skin. All I can say is listen carefully to those who have transitioned ahead of you and heed their advice. The worse enemy I found during my journey was not listening to those who say you look or are doing fine with presentation, etc. New transitioners have the fresh mental picture of their old lives and it is hard to be objective. There will come a day for you like me where you wake up hair a mess with no makeup and see a beautiful, genuine and real person in the mirror. From that point you so have it all!! I owe all my success to this great place and hope it is special to you as well. You can see all my new adventures and pictures (which I can't get enough of now) on Facebook. You are all beautiful in your own special way so celebrate this life and do not waste a moment. We older transitioners have lost too much already. You are special, you are loved and you are all unique so embrace yourself and live large.
