I've hit a point after 16 months in my transition where the estrogen is really becoming dominant . I can sit in a Starbucks in a dress and no or very little make up and feel comfortable and not get stared at. A dream come true after 40 plus years. when I was young I use to be so afraid that I could ever be real in public. I remember right after high school entering my long hair Hippi phase and sitting with a girl I knew when she pulled out her birth control pills and instead of thinking sex all that came into my mind was snatching the pills from her. God , the rush of happiness I feel now when I think of that moment and think now, wow I got my own estrogen and it's really as beautiful as I always thought it would be. Sorry for the rant , but I've been looking at my before and after pictures and the effects of estrogen are becoming quite beautifully evident. Of course the only thing better than this moment would of been getting my own estrogen when I was 18 , but thank God I got it now. I remember buying my first dress when I was 19 from a Hippi clothes store and I was so happy, but when I got home and put it on It just didn't look right so I gave it to my sister pretending it was a gift. Now , because of the hormones the dresses all look right on me and I'm in heaven. ( disclaimer this is just a happy rant and doesn't prove I've gone insane)
