Hi Redhot1....
Why crazy?
Did you really feel that then? And now? noting that you said if money was no object you'd get GRS/SRS...
Do you really have GID, but are looking for affirmation of it... Transgender is a raft of Gender ID related traits.
As a very young child I wished and prayed nightly that in the morning I'd be a little girl, I had never seen girls bigger than a baby on the changing mats? But I wanted it more than anything in the world... I tried pulling my genitals off during the years of four to six, even thought about getting big kitchen scissors, but was to scared... phew!
I put on the boy front, conformed as I had no idea why I was so different, this remained so through out my life, including through marriage - even to today, until around 17 or so years ago, when we got Internet, then at around 15 years ago found out about GID and that I was not alone, so despite years of cross dressing and wishing in total fear, I understood it was real... it ignited all those deep rooted feelings. since then I still have been hiding, but also planning and setting up my family for what will happen once the last dot is joined.
So I thought I'd share that as quite often you don't always join the dots, with GID or Dysphoria it can be really bad, manageable or limited if any adversity... for me it was manageable until last year or so... now its countdown, scared as, but will have to push on through.
Best thing is too consider seeing a gender therapist, it will help you in assessing your position, desires and journey..
L Katy
