I'm writing this post both as my introduction to the forum and as a warning of my experience to naive girls out there. Don't repeat my mistakes.
So, my name is Michelle, and I'm an MTF. I still have a penis but have undergone orchiectomy, so unless I take hormones exogenously (drug form), my body makes very little sex hormones. It sucks.
This may sound cliche, but when I was barely old enough to talk, I told my parents I wanted to be a "mommy", and went as a witch for Halloween when I was also very young, and encountered far more harmful issues during adolescent and early adulthood. My marriage (which was designed by me to finally "fix" me, was a trainwreck. My wife, of course, didn't understand, nor was she terribly excited about, my habit of satisfying my true desires occasionally by cross-dressing and such (worse). We had two beautiful daughters together and have been divorced 8 years. I have a great relationship with my two wonderful girls.
But, always thinking I was doing the moral thing, I would sink into tremendous guilt when I had my "failings." I have hurt, and hurt, and hurt. Misery. That's a nice way of putting it.
So, as I found myself deep in highly estrogenic tears over such things this evening, (LOL), I am grateful to be part of this forum. Thanks girls!
To the young and/or naive T-girl:
If you feel unsettled about your sexuality- sometimes fantasize about being the other gender, etc., I truly believe that is the time to Get counseling. Even we veteran girls need counseling sometimes, but u need it at that piece moment when u realize you're on the fence.
Don't be embarrassed, shy, and continue on as things are just because you're terrified of what might happen if u do xy and z.
Be really careful with your children and family. I emphasize children. If you're not careful about a slow transition, you might really hurt your children psychologically. I did my best, and things still slipped out a few times. My deepest regret.
But, without further ado, I come to you now deep in transition, and I'm pleased to meet all of you.
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