So I came out to pretty much everyone on Facebook, then told my mom with my "Dear Samantha" letter. I've started to train my baritone male voice into a bit of a higher pitch, and I went out to buy my first pair of big girl panties! It went well, I didn't really feel any anxiety, even in full cismale mode. I tried them on...my god, I wish I would've realized sooner! The thing is, tomorrow I have to go back to work in cismale mode, and it sucks. Also I regret shaving my head at ALL! It's gonna take forever to grow back and out. I could go with a pixie cut for the time being though.
I also don't want to bludgeon myself with a bat every time I look in the mirror now. It's a "work in progress," not a "stupid, ugly, male shell" anymore. Yay progress!
What were your first steps? How did you deal with them?
