idk anymore

[Yenneffer]

Im so tired i feel jealous of all you pretty girls im not ugly or anything im just depressed my doc wont hurry my hormones are taking ages im really suicidle scared i just wanna be female 

[Mariah]

Yenneffer, I'm sorry things are taking so long. Please call one of the help lines. I don't want to see you hurt yourself. Hugs
Mariah

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,187824.0.html

[Maddy_Aya_W.]

There have to be people who love you, it's not fair to put them through the pain of losing you. Definitely call a hotline if you're considering suicide. In time, I'm sure you'll become the woman you were meant to be. Just be patient.

[Ms Grace]

I understand - the wait to get on HRT can seem interminable. But you will get there, if not tomorrow or next week or even next month you will get there. And then you have the rest of your life to live as yourself! 🙂

[Rachel]

When I finally made up my mind I wanted hormones I had to wait almost 5 months because I was fragile. I had tried suicide 2 successive days and then got help. I had to wait 10 or so months to get clearance to go to group.

I know it is difficult to wait. You could do a lot of things in the mean time like start laser or electrolysis ( believe me start laser ASAP), get cloths and accessories and or go to group.

This is a  great time to put a plan in place for your transition.

I know waiting is difficult but you can make it productive.