So lately, I still have some ongoing dysphoria about my facial hair (10 laser treatments weren't enough and I'm too broke to do anything about it except tweeze the darkest, most obvious problem hairs and deal with embarrassing skin reactions from sweat in the spots where I shave). For the most part though, I notice that the dysphoria I have is negotiable compared to some of the other emotions I'm dealing with. My last term before I get my BA has been super stressful.
I find that I'm actually happier with a smaller penis and testicles. I used to have a 7 3/4" cock that gay men drooled over, but I hated always being on top with guys because I hated being reminded I had it. Everything finally shrunk noticeably while I was still going through really bad dysphoria and afraid to touch or measure it to see if there had been any progress. To my surprise I've lost 1" of length and about 1/2" of girth and it doesn't bother me one bit. I'd say it's an improvement to see it turning into an oversized clit and I might do OK with an orchi when the chance comes.
I barely get erections any more either but I don't care; I'm still frisky as a spring vixen and loving the nipple sensitivity I've regained since starting finasteride on top of my spiro. That's probably what's keeping me afloat right now. My body's less of a prison now and more of a fixer-upper apartment.
Is anyone else just barely at the point where your dysphoria's stabilized, but still feeling not-so-great?
