Thursday I became ill! A stomach thing. Unusual for me I never have stomach issues.
Turns out to be from working out and dehydration and elecrolites out of balance .
I almost would pass out when standing.
A really strange thing happened to me mentally.
I was so sick being a woman meant nothing to me . I felt so bad I was like what the heck have I done. For the first time I regretted my transition.
Missed my old life, just felt lost.
I actually pulled my hair back to see if I could pass as a guy with no make up.
My don said good luck with that go try.
My therapist taught me to think logically and that helped.
It was a scary time thinking I could regret this.
Once I felt better I came to my senses.
I love bring me do much. To have hair , to have my body change !
This is not a choice! I have up a wife that is perfect , beautiful in do many ways.
If I had been a real dude I would have been luckiest dude in the world.
My ex understands that and has my back!
She actually helped me through this and feels I did the right thing.
So lesson is, we may transition but life's problems stay with us.
Time for me to deal with those stressors!
I'm a chick now, I have no excuses!
Time to live!
Dodie
