I'd just like to share my first experience buying clothing for my preferred gender.
I'm MTF. Please, leave any comments (and tips for next time) after reading.
I hope you enjoy my
living nightmare story.
Today I got really confident. Maybe it's from the lack of sleep (me not thinking straight), or maybe it was the discontent of presenting as a boy. To give you a little background knowledge, I'm 6 foot 5, 17 years old and graduating in 15 school days (at least I hope). I currently dress as a guy, but I've been doing HRT for 3 months now, and can't WAIT until I get out of school, and start living my life the way it was meant to be. My councilor encouraged me over and over, to buy clothing in my preferred gender, and wear it at home. I wanted to so badly, but was terrified of doing so- until today. No, no. Today I would go out and buy myself a few outfits (that look cute or at least fit), and some bras and panties. (HRT IS DOING WONDERS FOR ME IN THE CHEST REGION
). So, I got up from class, called a taxi, went to my bank, took out $200 dollars, then took the same taxi to my final destination. Wal-mart.
After tipping the taxi driver 3 dollars, I stepped out, and marched right into the store. It's around 11AM, (I left school for a reason, no people my age would see me buying clothing because... I'm a guy to them.
) I took a cart, and quickly scanned the store for people my age. I was ready to go on a shopping spree.
Until I reached the women's clothing section of the store...
My heart dropped, and I panicked. Three old ladies looked at me, with a puzzled look, then carried on with their browsing. I quickly pushed my cart passed the ladies section, avoiding eye contact with anyone remotely near me. I flew right past the clothing, and ended up in the produce section. After making the pass again, and again, and again, I think some of the employees thought I was shop lifting... (A teenager in a Wal-mart during school hours, with nothing in their cart, snooping around the place, not to mention acting extremely nervous... understandable, I guess.)
I felt so out of place, I left my cart in a random aisle, and quickly headed to the bathroom. I then opened a stall, and sat down on the dirty toilet (I always hated men's restrooms...) and cried. The fear of being judged was all to real. When reading other peoples stories, It sounded so simple! Walk into a large department store (most recommended Wal-mart), no one will notice you or even bat an eye! And if they do, they'll just carry on about their day and never even remember you.
YEAH RIGHT.
A 6 something GUY roaming around the women's section picking out bras and panties?!
After pulling myself together, I left the bathroom and this time, I had a game plan.
I gathered some towels, and a few guy shirts and coats (perfect to cover my REAL clothing under).
This would work for sure, I said to myself. I went into the women's section, and ended up browsing the sunglasses beside all the actual clothing. (Scoping the place out, of course.)
When I noticed no one was around, I edged the cart towards the women's clothing and...
Bought a $200 dollar Mastercard Giftcard because I CAN'T DO IT!
So... anyone know a good online store (in Canada preferably) that sells good quality, but affordable clothing that can actually fit me?
