So hard to stay away from these forums...

[Avinia]

So.. I guess a couple weeks was a good enough break. Did learn a lot about myself when I disconnected myself from anything LGBT(besides when one of my favorite YouTubers came out).

I have pretty much accepted now that I am not transgender. Just a feminine guy. Think I was mistaking an attraction to women as me being transgender, or more of a fear of being attracted to women... Though I have decided to stop letting certain parts of me define who I am.

Now, I am finally pursuing stuff that has interested me for a few years, mostly religion based.. which I do wonder if it will eventually lead me to a very hard discussion with my parents... though not too hard, my parents already told me they would accept me if I ever decide I don't believe in God, think it has something to do with my brother already having announced he stopped going to church.

Also, I am officially an uncle... again... though for real this time. My nephew was just born this week, a month early though, so he has been in the hospital since Monday with blood sugar issues, but I will hopefully be able to visit him on Saturday.

And finally have decided to grow up and start looking into colleges, did sign up for a good community college about 40min from my house, but due to my nephew being born we had to cancel the placement tests, and I am now considering a different college due to the dangerous drive(about 2-4 car accidents on the road since May 1st), which would mean a longer drive and bad music program, but less of the risk of flying off a cliff.

Honestly, this is probably the first time I have been happy in a long time, and I am very thankful I never came out to my parents, since that would have been horrible to have to tell them I was wrong.. Which was probably actually one of the main reasons I never did come out, since deep down I did know it was wrong for me.

But I do now have a great respect for all of you people here.

Now back to staying signed in constantly, lurking, and posting every time an interesting topic comes up...

[Dena]

We don't care what you decide as you are a good person. We only ask that you make sure you aren't hiding anything from your self. On another thread a GG who wishes to remain so was asking about FFS that I don't think she needs. Now she does need some surgery, just not FFS. She is learning about us with an open mind and I welcome people like that into my circle as well as I welcome you. I am glad if you found help here because that is what this web site is all about. We should never push you into anything you don't want to do, just help you get were you want to be. Let us know how you are and have a good life.

[CalmRage]

So.. I guess a couple weeks was a good enough break. Did learn a lot about myself when I disconnected myself from anything LGBT(besides when one of my favorite YouTubers came out).

I have pretty much accepted now that I am not transgender. Just a feminine guy. Think I was mistaking an attraction to women as me being transgender, or more of a fear of being attracted to women... Though I have decided to stop letting certain parts of me define who I am.

Now, I am finally pursuing stuff that has interested me for a few years, mostly religion based.. which I do wonder if it will eventually lead me to a very hard discussion with my parents... though not too hard, my parents already told me they would accept me if I ever decide I don't believe in God, think it has something to do with my brother already having announced he stopped going to church.

Also, I am officially an uncle... again... though for real this time. My nephew was just born this week, a month early though, so he has been in the hospital since Monday with blood sugar issues, but I will hopefully be able to visit him on Saturday.

And finally have decided to grow up and start looking into colleges, did sign up for a good community college about 40min from my house, but due to my nephew being born we had to cancel the placement tests, and I am now considering a different college due to the dangerous drive(about 2-4 car accidents on the road since May 1st), which would mean a longer drive and bad music program, but less of the risk of flying off a cliff.

Honestly, this is probably the first time I have been happy in a long time, and I am very thankful I never came out to my parents, since that would have been horrible to have to tell them I was wrong.. Which was probably actually one of the main reasons I never did come out, since deep down I did know it was wrong for me.

But I do now have a great respect for all of you people here.

Now back to staying signed in constantly, lurking, and posting every time an interesting topic comes up...

i feel much the same way. this place is like the Hotel California. I can't leave.

[suzifrommd]

Welcome back. Good to see you again. You're probably right not to focus on your label and instead decide how you want your life to go.

[Rejennyrated]

Oh my aint that the truth.

Since 2007 I've been leaving and coming back like a dog to a bone... Best bit is I'm never going to have to transition, because I finished all that so long ago that the majority of folks on here weren't even born!

I don't consider myself trans but rather a woman with a trans history, however it is clear that I find the whole thing very fascinating, I'd like to think I was here to offer encouragement, a word of relity now and then, and the benefit of my considerable and ong life experience, such as it is, although sometimes I worry that I might actually be a bit voyeuristic.

So its nice to know that I'm not the only one that feels the pull of the place, despite not being in line to actually do anything.