The therapist is good.
Though personally I haven't had good luck with therapists, but that was partially my fault, I didn't know how to open up or what was really the issue. It'd be different now, but anyway I just become my own therapist, the best I can. I've delt a lot with anxiety, and i can relate to some of the stuff you're talking about..
Really what it came down to, for me, is prioritizing my well-being over anything else. Yes, I get uncomfortable about not being able to show who I really am, feel like there's so much lacking, but when I get caught in those loops like you're talking about, I try to remember that the thing I want the most in life is to be happy, no matter what, and that I know what I want, and know that I care about it, and that helps me recognize that I'm doing the best I can,.. and as soon as something opens up, towards transitioning, and just being more of myself, I'll take it, because I care. I don't have to worry about it, it doesn't help.
I take a lot of time for myself too though. If I didn't, I'd get overwhelmed with all the worries and expectations and all that. I'm learning to care for myself, basically.
So, for now all I can think to say is, when the means become available to you, take them. and until then, no matter the state of your body, know that you're still you (inside, which is where it counts most). take care of yourself
hugs.