I perform with a high dollar drum machine and bass machine because I cannot get members. The video i uploaded is a contest winning vid. I won against all the best musicians in Honolulu in that contest. people love my songs and are always asking me when im playing. if I was not trans I could have a band back me. I have found it very hard. promoters do not book me even though the other bands of this style love playing with me.
I have written songs to heal myself of trauma of loosing my children to accusations that are not true. people like to hold onto rumors to relieve their own guilt of leaving a friend or family member to suffer. So instead of weakness and abusing myself with pitty and drugs I am an example of strength to choose positive outlets for my pain and losses.
As an award winning performer and much loved by fans I find it amazing people choose to start bands all around me but not join me. I have even learned to loop my guitar and bass parts live and control that while I play drums and sing the songs. This drops jaws! I hear about how amazing I am and how much energy I am all the time, people stop me all over the island to let me know I am the most amazing performer they seen in a while, I rock and many compliments. So if it is the opinions of people who see me play that they love the songs and performance then why is it so hard to9 get members and booked for shows. ( Im not asking you but about to tell you) It is because Transsexuals are not taken seriously as equal citizens.
I have noticed I can find acceptance but people are reluctant to have close relationships. So I have to perform alone, go to the beach, movies, dinner by myself but get hugs when i show up where people are.
Currently i am healing from a bad fall in march in a nursing home and am thinking of only playing for myself as the work to get out is continuesly blocked by promoters who cannot take a trans girl seriously.
Once again, I am respectful and this is punkrock and is what I play and I am not looking for comments about my experience or your opinion of what im doing wrong but share your experience of what you noticed. Its a lonely feeling and your experiences could help me not feel so alone.
In last, I love you, I believe with universal love the entire banking control grid and government would have nothing to do or say as with universal love humanity would run perfectly on its own .... Love Anela July!!!