Hello everyone. I am a 33 year old combat veteran, married, kids, everything I could want, right? I thought so for a long time. I have had (imo) gender identity issues since i was about 9. i used to try on my sister's clothes, then my moms when i got older. i remember many times standing in the bathroom with bra and panties on wondering and wishing for it to be more than fantasy. Sadly this was something I couldn't get advice from my parents on as they were deeply religious (I am too but have different views on something). I always just figured something was messed up inside and that if i ignored it or just kept it secret, i would be alright. i joined the national guard at 17 thinking it would make me who i am supposed to be. it succeeded in changing me but not on the issues i wanted it to. i spent 13 years serving my country, bled for it, went through two unhappy marriages, had my first child and much more. always knowing in the back of my mind that i was just fooling myself. my brother and sister used to tease me saying i was going to be the one of the three of us that came out gay. guess i didn't hide things nearly as well as i thought or they just picked up on subtlety. i have had maybe 5 true male friends my whole life. i get along with most everyone but the majority of my closest friends have always been female. i just felt more in common with them then with guys. my current wife and i have been together for 10 years now (married for 2) and have 3 wonderful boys. and as much as i love my wife, i just don't feel complete. i just recently (about a week ago if that) decided to do something about it. a coworker of mine, who is mid transition F2M, was actually my inspiration to start on what could be a long, difficult road that has a great reward waiting for me at the end. i guess i should stop rambling as this is much longer than i intended it to be.
