Does anyone else deal with this affliction? I'm sure you do. I consider myself bisexual. By that, I mean I AM bisexual. As a boy, by the end of all of it, I got... I'm not going to say "good" at dating, but I was solid. Dates, relationships, cuddle buddies, and random hook-ups all happened, some overlapping the others.
I've been on hormones and presenting as female for a year and a half now. In that time, I've gone on one, yes ONE date. It was very impromptu after partaking in a lingerie show. It was a good time, but it was sort of a one-off thing. (The door's still open, too, so...)
Most of the time it feels like when I'm attracted to cis people, straight girls aren't really into me for obvious reasons. Sometimes they will be, but they also misgender me. And we all know what's gauche about that. Gay girls, I think, aren't really into me, because I have a penis and sometimes a deep voice if I talk a lot. Maybe it's in my head, and it totally could be, but I feel like they'll accept me as a girl within certain parameters. Straight guys are usually not into me, unless they're a creepy ->-bleeped-<- who's significantly older than me. Straight guys usually don't really see me as a girl, unless it's a quick interaction and I "pass." And gay guys, the bulk of guys I crush on, aren't into me for obvious reasons. And if they are, then it means again they don't see me as a girl.
I do like other trans girls, but since we're such a small demographic, the number of people I'll find myself attracted to AND who will reciprocate that is SUCH a tiny number. There was one, but she moved far, far away.
I guess the key here is bi and pan folks, but it's not like bisexual people have the word bisexual tattooed on their foreheads. (Or knuckles!!)
My point is, as much as I LOVE being a girl, the way estrogen feels, the way my body is changing, the way I look, and my newfound comfort in myself, dating has sucked pretty badly.
I'm getting verklempt. Talk amongst yourselves. I just gave you a topic. Discuss.
