I'm going to my first informed consent appointment very soon to get my hormones legit prescribed!

I'm just extremely concerned that Howard Brown Health Center may make me stop DIY for my blood test.
If I go more than two days or so without my hormones, my depression comes back, my confidence gets sucked out of me, and I go back to crying all the time, just like before I started HRT.
Antidepressants do absolutely nothing for me. No medication except my hormones helps my depression, emotions, and confidence, as strange as that sounds.
My mind, body, and emotions just do not react well when my T levels get too high.
I won't get suicidal or anything though.
Will the doctors at HBHC understand and not make me stop taking my hormones.?
I'm just really afraid that if I refuse to stop taking my hormones for the blood test, the doctors will refuse to prescribe them for me.
I just really want to get REAL hormones and do this under a doctor's supervision instead of DIY.