Hi Berliegh
Judging by your Avatar I would say that you should pass easily enough. You take into consideration as to how many GG's out there that appear androgynous or even more male looking then feminine. Many people out there don't think at all and wouldn't notice a pterodactyl standing in the middle of main street with it's wings fully extended out shrieking at them. Most folks live in a very small box and don't take much notice as to their surrounding and the ones that do notice don't give a damn. It is mostly on how you present yourself. I mean if you present yourself as your true self *the woman within* you will get mammed by those who do notice. Just one word of caution, never go for a walk on a down town street after dark when most stores are closed. There are some undesirables that haunt the streets after dark. Your coming out and how it will work out depends greatly on attitude and how you present yourself.
I was fortunate that I grew up mostly in the care of my mom and I idolised here and I remember thinking how she looked so much like a princes when she would get all dressed up to go out. I think she suspected or knew about who I was from birth. Back in those days it was not uncommon for a mother to let their boys hair grow long from birth. I have a very good memory of my early childhood and I can still remember with clarity from the age of three when there were times my mom dressed me in girls clothes and proudly paraded me before her friends, and that was also not uncommon in those days.. So I was sometimes my moms suck as well as her little girl. When I turned six years old, school age, I had to get my long locks cut off at a barbershop, and how I cried over loosing my hair. Of course I was very close to my mom and I followed her around the house like I was her shadow and I picked up many things from her, like not just chores but cooking, cleaning the house and doing the laundry as well I also inherited many of her mannerisms as I grew up. After I transitioned I just let those mannerisms come to the surface.
I had my second experience at being a girl when I ran away from home and joined up with some hippies. I had my dark brown hair back long again, butt length to tell the truth, and at fifteen years of age I very much still had the feminine features and with my half way voice everyone thought I was a girl and I certainly wasn't about to disappoint them of the notion. I lived in a commune as a girl for a year and a half and in the meantime I fell head over heals in love with this tall skinny kid with long blond hair and a small goatee under his chin. I remember how it reminded me of a billy goat. But then unfortunately fantasies don't last forever and I had to go back home.
I must admit it takes a lot of guts to come out even with the short term previous experiences I fortunately acquired, It was still a scary proposition for me. It didn't mater to me what anyone said or didn't say in the end you are the only one who has to make the decision to be her and live as her, and once out there is simply no turning back and if you truly are transsexual I guarantee you you will not have any desire to go back, it's a one way street. If I had known what I know now back in my teens I would probably have transitioned right there and then. But the thing is there just wasn't much of any kind of support for transitioning in those days, if any at all. But believe me the longer you sit on the fence the harder it will be to get off that fence. I wish I would have done it year ago, but since I didn't I will savor every second of what's left of my life living it as who I am. I also had the experience of playing the roll of being a *mother* to 11 children through the years and now I am a *grandmother* of six.
Sorry if this got a little long and all over the map but I guess I could say that I have just told another part of Cindy's story.
And I want to thank you kids so much for for taking time to read this, hmmm like spilt ink on a map.
