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could use some words of encouragement (It gets better)

Started by Jessica_W, June 25, 2015, 02:42:56 PM

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Jessica_W

Hey everyone, I'm about to push the button that will cause everything I know in my world to explode in a huge fireball. Everything I've known will change and before I do, I could use some encouragment from those who "took the leap" and never looked back. I know the road ahead of me will be challenging and difficult, but I'm looking for some positive inspiration; something that I can hold on to. It gets better? Tell me what's better for you so I may draw strength and encouragment.

Thanks,
Jessica <3
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Discovered I Am Transgender: June 15th, 2015

Caught a glimpse of her: April 22nd, 2016

To Be Continued...
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suzifrommd

Hugs Jessica,

I can't imagine where I'd be today if I hadn't decided to be true to my gender.
* My social situations are infinitely more comfortable. It feels so natural to be a woman.
* My body looks EXACTLY the way it should.
* I no longer wonder a hundred times a day what it would have been like to live as a woman.

If I hadn't done it. I'd still be wondering.

Enjoy the ride. It's worth it!
Have you read my short story The Eve of Triumph?
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Kellam

Sorry for you too natasha...

I have been lucky...

I am no longer panicky and on edge all the time.
My social anxiety is waining.
Being around my social circle has become way easier.
Heck just being has become way easier.
I stand up for myself more often.
I actually enjoy seeing my photo or looking at myself in the mirror.
I feel confident in who I am.
I no longer experience detatchment from my existence.
Learning just how much the people around me care about and respect me has been a dumbfoundingly wonderful experience.

Mostly I just feel right...
https://atranswomanstale.wordpress.com This is my blog A Trans Woman's Tale -Chris Jen Kellam-Scott

"You must always be yourself, no matter what the price. It is the highest form of morality."   -Candy Darling



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Kaydee

It will never be perfect.  But that is true for everyone.  You need to find yourself a support group that will stick with you as you choose to become yourself - some may be family and friends, some may be professionals and other trans*-people, and some will be the new friends you build as you get the courage up to be yourself.  Good people admire courage.

I discovered I was trans a year and a half ago at age 56.   Seven weeks ago I became Aimee full time.   For the first time in my life I like myself.  I am learning to take care of myself and find myself worthy of good things.  I sometimes like looking in a mirror - I never did before.   I have lost 99% of my anxiety.   My depression, while not gone, is never as deep as it once was.  I have lost the dysphoria and the constant nagging to become myself.

I know I am fortunate in that most of my family has accepted my change, that I work at a university and so am accepted and supported at work.   Everyone has a different situation and you have to assess that yourself.

Does it get better?  I awake in the morning, remember that my life is now my own and that I don't need to live a lie.   I have worked through the anxiety and shame issues and that has allowed me to be free to open up around others and make close friends.   

I have a lot of personal issues to work through ( a marriage falling apart, figuring out my sexuality, deciding on the need for SRS) and still am learning who I am.  But based on what I know so far, yes, it is worth it.

Keep your expectations realistic.  Know that transition is going to be an emotional roller coaster.  But give yourself a chance of living an authentic life.   Its scary, but its also the only way feel alive.
Aimee





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stephaniec

sorry you're having troubles. I've been alone all my life, HRT gave me my only reason to live.
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BenKenobi

I'm in one of those awkward in-between stages. Pre-everything, not quite out to everyone in my life, lost a boyfriend who i DID come out to, and now suffering therapy bills.

But I'm hopeful because now i have a clean slate (more or less). I think the closer you are to being yourself the better it will be.
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Andre87

My philosophy was:
*Choose the path that will make you happy in 10 years as well.
*Think in advance.Don't be blind for additional options.Think "what if"
*Also choose the path that will less rely on other people(maybe you'll find soulmate,but imo it's wise not to expect much and be surprised if everything goes ok)
*Choose the path that won't rely on organizations(formality isn't above life) if you can solve it by yourself.
*Choose the path that will make you more independent and boost selfconfidence.

Be creative in any way(write books,publish articles,have kids...whatever works).
Every man is a star whose light can make shadows dance differently and change our view of landscape permanently***
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Rejennyrated

Realistically I think it depends to an extent where you are in the world. Some countries (for example the UK) have come a long way in more recent times, others have a way to go, hence I suspect Natasha's story. Her halting english leads me to suspect she is from a country which is less understanding.

That said in 1965 I began my rather slow childhood transition. Yes it did happen back then, but it was more haphazard than these days because basically what happened was that I was given the freedom to explore gender expression, but without the availability of puberty blockers I think they relied on the fact that at 16 or 17 biology would eventually force me back into line. It happened to some extent, but I promptly set about escaping again, retransitioned and had GRS in my mid 20's in the mid 1980's.

Well I can honestly say that I never looked back. Thats not to say it was easy, but for me it has been worth it.

Then again I probably had less to lose than you, so its an unanswerable question really. Bottom line is none of us knows what lies down the road not taken, so you have to MAKE the road you do take into the right one.

I've had an interesting life, I've had a highly successful career, a long and beautiful relationship which only ended when I was widowed, and now in my twilight years I'm studying medicine, so despite what I said earlier i'm actually going to find out about the road not taken because I'll get to be a doctor, which is what I would have done if I hadnt been trans...

seems like fate gave me back those years after all.

I've lived a very happy life. Not a single atom of what Natasha describes resonates with me, but then life comes with no guarrantees, so if you are asking is Happiness possible I would say yes without hesitation, but if you are asking will YOU be happy, then I cannot answer because so much of it will depend of you, your attitudes, your expectations, and a bit of luck.

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Mariah

Jessica, I took the leap and went full time almost a year ago now last year. I really did jump in with both feet too. Are things perfect no, but being able to be my true self has been liberating to say the least. I honestly never thought the issues I have would be as minimal as they are. Some things like my voice needed a ton of work when I started. My first wig was far from perfect and as a result it definitely took away from my look and passability over time. What a huge difference changing out wigs made. I'm happier and love how I look now. Of course hormones have played a big role considering being on them for more than 9 months now. Between the changes that occurred as a result of all those things I think the biggest thing is being at peace with myself and the hormones and being able to see me in the Mirror as I see myself on the inside really helped with that. I don't regret going full time at all because in the end it was really a non event and I went about being my authentic self. I was more nervous when I started making outward changes that people could notice than I ever was going full time. Good luck and Hugs.
Mariah
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RavenL

Hi Jessica,

I'll list a few things that make me happy even if I haven't gone full time yet or have HRT.

My mood has improved greatly
I'm more friendly and outing
More confident
I don't hate looking at myself now or getting my picture taken
Clothes actually fill like they fit me
I'm starting to slowy make new friends
Wake up looking forward to the day
I'm more open to new things now

Hope this helps you out
Hugs Lady R






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