I don't really know how to start this post because, I'm way more anxious than I probably should be at the moment. I've been tossing around the idea in my head of coming out to my grandmother about my whole situation. I have a feeling that she already suspects though because, honestly I've been kind of blatant about it. Since I figured out I was trans last year I've been getting progressively more and more feminine, I've been growing out my hair (the bottom layer is a bit below my shoulders at this point), plucking and more recently waxing my eyebrows, shaving my body hair, speaking in a higher pitch with more feminine inflections, wearing some makeup and etc.
I've also for the past few months at least (I can't really remember when it started) I have brought up trans stuff every time I see her almost without fail. We've discussed quite a bit, Caitlyn Jenner, Bathrooms, the trans spectrum, names, surgeries, Laverne Cox, Transparent and Kristin Beck. She has a very positive view on it all luckily. She has been staying with me for the past few days and will be for probably another week while my mom is on a trip. We have been watching a movie every night and having trouble picking one each time, so the other day i said I had one already picked out and we watched "Boy Meets Girl" with Michelle Hendley.
I was thinking of telling her while she's staying here since we'd have plenty of time to talk about it. Only thing is while I've rather blatant about it with my presentation and topics of discussion, I am still absolutely terrified when it comes to actually talking to people about my own situation. I know I need to start soon or I'll be furious with my self later on. So to finally get the point my reason for posting this is to ask for advice, maybe encouragement and to vent.
Thanks,
Ashtyn
P.S.
Sorry for any spelling/ grammatical errors, can you tell I'm nervous?
