That's so poignant and probably makes many of us think, well it made me think...
When I first met my MTF friend in a company we worked for, I was amazed at her poise, I befriended her, even though she was US based at the time, we worked for the same company. Anyway we both left and ended up in the same company again, different times, again I was just so inspired by her "just getting on with life" and holding solid roles, where people respected her input.
Again we lost our roles there (company went bust) I went my way, she hers, until we ended up again at the same company, in fact she helped get me in.
We worked together and for 5 years I tried telling her, numerous times, that I too was transgendered, I couldn't, because I felt inferior, don't know why, maybe I was envious?
I left the company and again went somewhere else.
Eventually I went and met with her, I told her, she asked why had I not said before... I said I have no idea, I tried... but somehow it did not happen!
Anyway soon after that I came here to Susan's (best thing I ever did as its given me so much insight into transitioning that I had never thought about)
So the upshot is that no matter how often waves of emotion sway over you, it often takes another being themselves that drives yourself.
Katy xx