my story

[ickybaby]

I am writting this hoping for a better deal than what I have at the moment.  I grew up in a world where men were macho and you shunned if one was not.  This was the begining of a long road of DEPRESION. (sniff)   Things became worse.  My depresion ruled my world and I withdrew.  I mean that I had this feeling that being a male was not right and I was a kid, I had no clue about being transgender and no one to set me straight.  To throw fuel on the fire, I got sick.  I got cancer which bloomed into three brain tumors which screwed up my gate.  I got more depressed. I guess that the only goods things about that was had no need to explain my ->-bleeped-<- which kept me from ending it.  I tried to keep my secret by becoming a husband and a father, but the medical condition got worse and she was gone and the child went too.  I use a walker now but I crossdress in my little studio and I feel right.  I have decided to live the rest of my life the way I should have.  The way that makes me feel better.  I want to this right and I want to do this naturally.  I'm too old to resssignment surgery. I feel that the cutting and the healing may interfer with all the other crap going on in my body.  Just point me in the right direction.

[V M]

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[Jessica_W]

Welcome. I'm sorry for your struggles and losses, but you've come to the right place. From what I can tell, you're heading in the right direction and now you've got company.  :-)

Jessica <3

[gennee]

A hearty welcome to Susan's, Ickybaby. I'm happy that you have decided to live life on your own terms. I'm sorry about the losses in your life. You are heading in the right direction.

[januarysunshine]

Hi and welcome:)
I'm sorry for the tough times you've been going through.
Just know that being yourself, being comfortable in your skin is possible, at any age.
this is a nice place--I think you'll like it here

[katrinaw]

Hi Ickybaby

A very warm welcome to Susan's

Glad you have joined us.

I am so sorry and sad for you that you have had such a rough time.

I too was born in times where "men were men and women were women" and like you, knew I was all wrong from a very early age, and was also very depressed as a kid through to mid teens.

I would suggest, if you have not already, trying to see a gender therapist/counsellor, they'll put you in touch with the right folks in your area. It is important to have some sort of physical interaction with people that could help you on a face to face level.

Of course being here you are welcomed with open arms, and, will bring you a lot of friendships, support, advice and suggestions.

Best wishes on your new life being you and its never to late xxx

L Katy 

[Aeirs]

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[Mariah]

Hi ickybaby, welcome to Susan's. So sorry to hear about everything you have been through. Your heading in the right direction now. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah