Massive hugs Hazel
Honey, life is too precious, yes we all have obstacles and hurdles to get over, but we do get over them, this is not cliché, we are all here on earth for a reason, we may not know immediately what that reason is, but we will do, some have to wait many years, for others its clear up front.
When I am down and depressed I look at all the happy and exciting moments and then what I still need to do, plan and move towards it, I always have done, its amazing how positive you can become. I have always managed to return to positivity, and, I have been struggling for many years (too many years) always with "god how can I become a woman" "to ugly and no hair..." But do you know what, I am pushing ahead, I can hide bad features, wear a wig, there is no reason why I can't meet my dreams.
The first step is to get out and get some help, help lines or Dr's, yes surprisingly they do help and care, and, its all in confidentiality. So please call a help line, I am sure you can do it quietly, or head out to a phone booth and make the call. Also go and get those beautiful and cute clothes, wearing them with pride and feeling good about yourself.
All of us here love you, your are part of our family, so please keep talking with us and get some help.
Love Katy xxx