One of my "rage points" is where I'm told I do not have enough experience to do even factory work. I do poorly in interviews because I don't have a lot of experience, I am shy, I have effeminate mannerisms, I have long-ish unruly hair, I think they look at my facebook and see all my trans and political stuff, and I am usually nervous, i can do mind numbing factory work (its better working over a deep-fryer any day). in fact I kind of like the not taking work home-with-me aspect of the factory, and would probably still do factory work even if i had a degree because I can not do well in a where social ability matters more than getting a certain quota of parts finished. What caused me a lot distress on my last job was being in the closet, even though people saw through it, ut didn't know what my issue was. I only sat with women at lunch, would discuss things that are more stereotypically feminine, was pretty shy, and another woman noticed that I shave my arms and it became a discussion at break. I worked from mid-October to mid-April, and I cannot seem to get into another factory. What happened today was that i was overwhelmed by rage and sadness. I wish I could force people to hire me. I don't know what to do at this point.
