I have a positive story to share!
I recently joined an online Facebook group of nerdy girls that was recommended to me by a real life friend that I met a couple months ago at college. It was a bumpy ride getting admitted, but they finally let me in.
I still present male mostly in public and on Facebook, though I'm dropping hints here and there, like makeup, girl pants, gender change on Facebook, and my "liking" the Transgender Initiative at my local LGBT center. Nothing overt though.
I just joined this group on like, Wednesday of last week (5 days ago). They had a Girl's Game Night planned for the following Saturday night (2 days ago). I really wanted to go, but hemmed and hawed over it since I don't present well yet. One of the girls told me I should definitely go though and that reassured me. So I put on my big girl panties and got dressed. Wound up staying there for like 3+ hours and LOVED it. There were 8 of us and we played a couple of card games all night and just laughed and laughed and had a terrific time. I was really overwhelmed by how accepting they seemed to be! So much fun, I hated for it to end.
So, a couple of notes:
- I didn't have any awkward "attraction" moments to contend with like I had worried about.
- I don't think I presented too many "male" overtones for them to pick up on, but I don't know, didn't ask. I probably should ask.
- We took a group photo afterward, and I photographed terribly. It was kind of a sour ending to the night, but I just try not to look at the picture. Bad clothes, bad hair, bad posture.
- All the responses on Facebook so far have been so welcoming. We have so much in common to talk about, it's truly a special group of girls and I look forward to hanging out with them more and learning to be a better girl me!
I need to get some more flattering apparel to play up what femininity I have and downplay what I don't. My wife doesn't want me buying many/any clothes though until I've been on HRT longer or presenting female more frequently. It's really hard to like myself and want to present female more frequently if I don't have any way of doing that though!
Maybe some hair accessories? /cuteface
